By Faith, Not By Sight

By Faith, Not Sight

God has allowed this patient patient to get more practice since my last post. I never quite made it out of the tunnel. Instead, my faith muscle is getting yet another workout. The lyrics from the chorus of one of my favorite choir songs say, “we’ll walk by faith and not by sight.” That is where I find myself today. 

 

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”

Hebrews 11:1 NIV

 

The Problem Identified

Following my most recent blog post, my incision broke open again, nearly seven weeks after my 2nd surgery. That led to another 5 days in the hospital and more surgery. Testing revealed why I wasn’t healing—I have a post-operative MRSA infection that reached the bone. Another neurosurgeon “washed out” my neck and I began a 6-week course of IV antibiotics. I’m currently about halfway through my treatment. 

 

The Solution

I get an infusion every 12 hours lasting 77 minutes. There is no physical proof that this treatment is working, at least not yet. That’s where faith comes into play. I’m choosing to believe that healing is underway without seeing any evidence. That is, I’m walking by faith, not by sight. 

 

Faith Defined

Faith is defined as complete trust or confidence in someone or something. There’s nothing wrong with having faith in my doctors and the medicine they prescribe, but, if my faith is limited to that, I’ve missed out on something so much greater. Biblically speaking, the object of our faith is a God who knows no limits. He is all-knowing, all-powerful and ever present, yet invisible. I know He loves me. Exhibit A: Jesus. Ultimately, that is Who I’m choosing to trust. How about you? 

 

The byproduct of that decision…

 

“The Lord gives perfect peace to those whose faith is firm.”

Isaiah 26:3 CEV

 

May His good and perfect will be done in my life and in yours. Stand firm!

The Memory of an Elephant

Long-term memory

The Memory of an Elephant?

Have you ever heard the expression–the memory of an elephant? I have. In fact, when I was growing up, my family would often say that I have the memory of an elephant. I never really gave it much thought, but did know that I had a good memory, especially for important dates like birthdays. To this day, my mom will still call me if she needs to know someone’s birthday, anniversary, etc. Elephants apparently excel in long-term memory, perhaps because of the size of their brain. Thus, the saying—the memory of an elephant.

Remembering

In my writing, I often return to the topic of remembering and just how important it is. When it comes to faith, it can make or break you. One story in particular from the book of Exodus always makes me shake my head. That is, until I realize that I’m no different.

A Miracle Forgotten

To summarize, the Israelites, who were enslaved in Egypt, experienced the miracle of miracles when God delivered them from the hands of the Egyptians by parting the Red Sea. Yes, He stopped the flow of water long enough for them to cross to the other side. The Egyptian chariots, in hot pursuit, followed them into the sea and were drowned. A mere forty-five days after witnessing and being part of such a miracle, the Israelites were grumbling. They were hungry and miserable and longed to go back to Egypt where they were slaves. In their misery, their memories were slightly distorted.

“If only we had died by the Lord’s hand in Egypt! There we sat around pots of meat and ate all the food we wanted, but you have brought us out into this desert to starve this entire assembly to death.”

‭‭Exodus‬ ‭16‬:‭3‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Faith is Fed (or Starved) by Our Memory

The Israelite memories of their previous life don’t exactly indicate a life of slavery, do they? Perhaps they embellished. They were only a month-and-a-half removed from one of the greatest miracles of all time and this was what they remembered. Apparently, the Israelites did NOT have the memory of an elephant!

I tend to be hard on the Israelites. How could they forget what God had just done for them? And then I realize that I am no less guilty.

The Circumstances

Earlier this year, I wrote about a few miracles of my own leading up to my daughter’s wedding. That was roughly seven months ago. I hit a speed bump with my own health four months later and have been on a mission ever since to get to the bottom of that. If you read my last post, you know that in my quest for answers, another, more important, issue was discovered. Just a few days ago I gave consent to a neurosurgeon to perform laminoplasty to relieve the pressure on my spinal cord caused by severe stenosis.

Choosing Where to Focus

God has a perfect track record when it comes to faithfulness. I know that and hopefully you do too. Yet, when faced with a crisis, it’s easy to dwell on our current circumstances and allow doubt and fear to creep into our hearts and minds. Rather than focusing on God’s faithfulness in the past, the Israelites were consumed by their current discomfort. I’m not so different. Are you?

His Faithfulness

If you, like me, are staring down some challenges at the moment, let’s vow to tap into our inner elephant and remember His faithfulness in the past. May that give us the courage to step into our future full of faith that He will see us through this challenge as well.

“Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.”

‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭10‬:‭23‬ ‭NIV

(I am listening to old choir music as I put the finishing touches on this post. Though simple, one of my all-time favorites that I sang with the church choir is “He Will See You Through.” Perhaps that is because there always seems to be some challenge that I need Him to see me through! Guess what song just played? Yep! That was NOT a coincidence–God is good.)

More Important

As always, I wait on God to supply the material for my blog posts. That, and the time to write. Sometimes I just have to reprioritize all that is vying for my attention and move that which is more important to the top of the list. Thus, this new post.

Helping a Friend in Need

I have been reading and discussing a great book, “Faith, Doubt, and God’s Mysterious Timing,” with a friend over the last several months. It is written by Laurie Polich Short. Within each chapter, she generally uses three stories from the Bible to drive her point home. In a chapter titled, “When in Doubt, Look at Jesus,” Laurie used the story of four friends going to great lengths to help their paralytic friend. I think great lengths might be an understatement. They dug through the roof where Jesus was teaching and lowered their paralyzed friend on a mat to get him to Jesus. That’s how badly they wanted healing for their friend. Imagine their surprise when Jesus’ response was “Son, your sins are forgiven.” I have a feeling they looked at one another with a puzzled look. “Huh?”

A Greater Need

Jesus, of course, was using this as another teaching moment. You see, there were teachers of the law in attendance, and He knew that they were silently accusing Him of blasphemy. Jesus wanted them to know that He, the Son of Man, had the authority to forgive sins on earth. Jesus also knew that it was more important that the man’s sins be forgiven than his ability to walk be restored. So, even though the latter was the intention of his friends, Jesus addressed what was more important first—the forgiveness of sins.

Physical Healing

Once Jesus made his point, he addressed the paralytic again:

“I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.” He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, “We have never seen anything like this!”

Mark 2:11-12 NIV

Wait–what?

I got a surprise, much like the paralytic’s friends, recently. I, too, went looking for one thing and found another. A headache that won’t quit has had my attention for nearly 3 months now. In my quest to solve that problem, another one has been uncovered that is apparently more important. It isn’t life-threatening, but it IS life-altering. This new discovery has rocked my world, but, at the end of the day, I need to look at it as a blessing. Jesus ALWAYS knows what is more important. So, I pay attention, and rearrange my ducks yet again.

In case you are in need of a reminder too:

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:8-9 NIV

The Blessing of Community

On a side note, I am touched by the effort put forth by the paralytic’s friends to help him. I have an equally dedicated collection of friends and family who have gone to great lengths to help me as well. That brings me great comfort in the midst of such uncertainty. They are such a blessing to me. I pray that you are also blessed with a wonderful support network on which you can lean in good times and in bad. After all, we were made for community.

 

Perfect Timing

God's Timing is Perfect

I’m writing this post while sitting in the ER with my husband who is trying desperately to pass a kidney stone. This is our second trip here for this issue in 6 days. He will be the father of the bride in THREE short days. We’ve been looking forward to this wedding for over a year. Why now? This isn’t the first time I’ve asked myself that question this year. What about God’s perfect timing?

Are You Sure, God?

Last month my mom landed in the ER and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure. Upon further investigation, we found out she was in need of a new heart valve. She, too, has been looking forward to the wedding. In fact, it’s been her goal to be here for it since my dad passed last year. When I thought all hope of her meeting that goal was lost, I had that same question— “Why now?”

An Exercise in Faith

My faith is getting quite a workout lately! When I reached out to my amazing support system last month with news of my mom, I said in my text that, though I did not understand the timing, I was choosing to trust that it was perfect. Then I had to talk myself into believing it!

Yes, He’s Sure

While I was trusting His perfect timing, God was confirming it with each test result. My mom was indeed a candidate for a less invasive procedure to replace her valve.  And it happened in short order! Some people wait months for one and she got hers the very next week, leaving a trip to FL on the radar.

The Results

I am beyond thrilled to tell you that nine days after having her valve replaced, my mom was cleared to come to FL for the wedding. And with a heart that is functioning far better than it was a month ago! This is a true testament to God’s perfect timing. It wasn’t at all how I would have drawn it up though!

My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:8-9 NLT

I asked my “people” to pray for a wedding miracle for my mom just three short weeks ago. Tomorrow she will be boarding a plane for FL. I think that qualifies!

Now we need another one. Stay tuned for the rest of the story….

(I’m finishing this post in the OR waiting room–TWO days before the wedding)